Isn't it Ironic?

A constellation of pimples appeared on my forehead a few days ago and in all of the books I have read the instructions about using heavy duty zit cream are clear. Don't use them. The many ironies of pregnancy lose all hilarity once experienced first hand. For example, due to pregnancy you come home from work feeling like you've been run over by a truck and you realize the only way to make it any better is to pour yourself a good strong drink. Or, because you are pregnant you feel as though it would take nothing short of a fork lift to get you out of bed in the morning and realize the only other possible solution would be to drink a whole pot of coffee. Sorry sister - you're pregnant. Alanis could have written a whole album about the ironies of pregnancy. But you realize that at the end of the day these are only small sacrifices and that the real sacrifice will come when you squish a baby out of your who who.

There are many symptoms of pregnancy and some of them are experienced by almost everyone and some by only a select few. The symptoms of mommyhood are much different and while I don't know much about being a mother, I do know that the first symptom of mommyhood is experienced by every pregnant woman and most of the time it is on the first day you realize you are pregnant. This symptom is commonly known as worrying. Oh the things you find yourself worrying about. At first you mostly worry if your baby will be a "sticky baby" or if you will experience the heartache of a miscarriage. Then you move on to more severe worries like what if my baby has a birth defect, what if my baby has a weak heart, or what if my baby has both boy parts and girl parts. I mean the worrying can drive a person mad. We are worrying about our babies before they are even outside the womb! And once they are out I can't even begin to think about all of the things I'll worry about. One night I found myself creating hundreds of different scenarios in my head about the many things that could go wrong now and over the coming months. I seriously did this for at least three hours until I was sweating and basically losing my mind. I used to do this when I was a kid. At night I would worry that my parents would suddenly die and I would end up crying myself to sleep.

I do realize that worrying is a complete waste of time. I know in my heart that the Lord has a plan and there is no amount of worrying that can change that plan. And so each day is a struggle to surrender my worries and fears to the Lord and trust in Him with all of my heart. Because the Bible says "Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6